9/19/2012-Wine...oh, I mean "time" heals all...

 

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It took me about about a month to write Blog #1;  Baby#1: River's Story

 

I don't know how long it will take me to write the story of Baby #2, Reed.

 

River's story was the most difficult thing that I've ever written, and things don't exactly improve from there.

 

I feel like I have to write the stories to process the emotions. Because bottling them up, outside of my one hour a week therapy appointment, just isn't working.

 

Speaking of bottling things up...I will quit the wine..when I have good reason to.

 

One of the only things getting me by right now, as I fight against the Captain to start looking into IVF (because he needs A LOT of time to process ANYTHING INVOLVING FEELINGS - he may, in fact, be due for a system overhaul...or even just, some new anti-virus software), is good old alcohol. Perhaps this is a hallmark of an alcoholic, but, IMHO, 1 -2 glasses of wine per day does not an alcoholic make. Right?

 

I don't know, but this is how I am getting by. I'm also pretty sure that Jesus drank more than me.
 I'm also pretty sure that antidepressants are failing me at this point. I mean, I'm not suicidal...not today, anyway. But there have been times.

 

But for right now, I'm going to enjoy a glass of Cupcake winery's "Red Velvet." With some Hawaiian pizza, and Season 1 of Heroes.

 

Cheers!